Experience and Lost Thoughts : The Wuhan Chapter

Dark space, Bend, contort, The 30 plus joke, The fawning, the fearing, The faking of confidence, Then, I am waiting, Waiting to petted Waiting to be cooed Waiting to be cuddled Waiting to hear... to feel. I think I know what it's like... To be the others, They are all you. and me? I fight the war, I fight the selfish war, The 'i am here' war, The  'don't you see' me war, I dance that fawning dance, I dance that acceptance dance. I hurt, I bend, I contort, I fake the confidence. You can keep the faces though! Keep the blood that runs thick, Keep that name! It's hard to wear, I am too round, ... it's hard to keep on Too bold. My eyes have seen things, ...stretched out my mind but I am just! Too wide! I can't fit! You can keep the face, I don't need it. We are all planted in the womb, We have no choice, Sprouting from matter so dark, Spiralling, loose, and out! Most covered in holy glitter, Some, gutter p...

I demand, Not ask, I seek, Yet, denied all that I find. I am not small, Neither fragile nor coy, I am in the front line, Feral protecting mine, I demand, Not ask, Only because I am mistaken, For lack of a better term… Varied genes lost in translation? Is it nurture vs. nature? That I blame your mother, The villain you have become, The father of diverse seeds planted, Embedded with psychosocial issues, Only you could control, I demand, yet, for them, I have to ask; To make peace between us I demand you stay in my bed; Stop wandering aimlessly in others, In other people’s homes, You chase the thrill of getting caught, Or is it drinking from the fountain of youth you seek? A whisper said, ‘to rejuvenate your waning ‘love’     Your mind evokes pointed breasts, As mine wave at my oblong valley below, You stray, Looking, No, I demand and not ask, That you do by me what you vowed, I expect no less. I demand and not ask, As my mother drags us thro...